life certainly is going on as it always does. fast approaching the halfway mark of the year.

A good friend of mine has come on her annual visit with her hubby from England. even though it had been 3 weeks since she landed on our fair shores it was at a dance performance that I saw her. quite the bit accidental. The performance was by my "on stage sister", and a brilliant one at that. poor thing got so emotional when giving thanks she ran off and delivered the speech from behind the curtains. getting back to the story of my friend:I asked my hubby - since my friend had turned down an invite to go out to eat and asked if we could come see them at their place - if we could meet them. Hubby patiently pointed out that:

1. It had been 3 weeks since they landed, she had not called me up.
2. Just as on her 2 previous visits, she had turned down the invite for a night out.
3. It's always "us" chasing up or going to meet them.

I know with friends these things don't matter and people on holidays are short with time, but at the same time saw the truth of hubby's words. WHAT is a gal to do?

Aha! I know it for sure now...I have such an unstable mind that it is actually disturbing. ;o)

yesterday and the day before I was all panicky and apprehensive for no apparent reason and wanted to go curl up in mom's lap. but today..Behold! the inane grin...again without reason. I do not want to smile so much because I am scared that it will bring upon me some wrath...ok ok..some unwelcome thingie. but like everything this too shall pass.(hmm...must cut back on the coffee and the philosophical discussions!!)life goes on with work. ppl are moving out(YEY!!), and hopefully the much missed privacy will soon be ours to have & to hold once again.

nostalgic moments seem to be the thing of the week!

good thing tho' is that life goes on, whether u like it or not.

Oh!Man....they've hung this huge Disco ball on the Harbour Bridge. the Disco ball apparently weighs 2 tons!! it's nice to look at. especially in the morning and evening sun when it dazzles..it's like a thousand flashes going off in a dark stadium. it's gorgeous with that effect on display.

p.s: work goes fine..with nothing much to do..what better for the Queen of bludging? ;o)

I have always been a sucker for gardens. Thanks to my friend I enrolled in a gardening & (no) landscaping class at the local community college. My knowledge of the plants the maintenance have grown. Main reason for the enrolling being that all sorts of plants I have had in pots in my balcony "graveyard" have perished. Appallingly I discovered that it was due to over-caring!

Anyways since I have already tried my hands at carnations and roses I thought to see how tulips fare in the pot. Alas..Too late in the season for flowers and the harsh harsh sun burnt the leaves. I was told to feed it and wait till next spring. Arrrr! Since the advice was to feed my plants fertilizers,I have done precisely that. Add to the "I-have-added-fertilizers-garden-will-grow" feeling , the garden makeover shows and you have me impatiently waiting for flowers and leaf sprouting like mad!! All this anticipation with just one feed of fertilizer..Today!!

Grow I say G-R-O-W...Now!!

Why don't some ppl pick up after themselves?not doing that once in a while is understandable. but Every-Blooming-Day?? after brekkie there will be 1/2 a banana or half a mango('tis in season..YEY!!!) on the counter...then do they consume it during the day..Oh NOOO...it just sits there. why don't I clean it u ask? well because I am so tired of doing so and of telling that particular person!!! so it just sits there. then the next morning..another half a fruit grins at me from atop the counter. then there the issues of unwashed cups/plates dirty spoons(again on counter!). believe me it is not a welcoming sight(or site 4 that matter). and so much for the kitchen that was clean and the counter that was mess-less. GRRRR.

any idea as how to bring about lasting clean kitchen? (oh BTW..the person responsible for the mess is a 36 year old!)

Why is name changing a big issue? Isn't it personal?
I haven't changed my surname to that of my hubby's after our marriage. other than the two of us everyone else seems to be bothered about the fact that I have not done so!! I went in for a radio program/ad for the temple activities somewhere in March, there the presenter (who happened to be our friend) asked for the complete name and I gave the "unaltered". He looked at me as if I was a weird creature...Who was unaware of how things worked. He extended to offer his sympathies to my husband(Ha! The nerve!), telling how he got his wife to change her surname immediately after their marriage. "Poor soul" I thought, not even having the freedom to decide if she wanted to change the name...Having to bow down to pressure like this...and to think it was a love marriage(u'd think that he would have the manners to ask her first if she wanted the change)(her accepting and not accepting is besides the point!!)

Then he asked me what my title was..Mrs, or Miss(latter because I was still using my maiden name). I told him that, like "Mr" (for bachelors and married men alike) there's a term now called "Ms" for women. he argued that it was for divorced women.What The..! A detailed explanation followed about human rights and the like, which resulted in him using no title when he uttered my name!

yesterday after my debut in acting, one of my friends came up to me and said that she was surprised to note that I hadn't changed the name! WHAT?? hellooooo...it's a personal choice ....and there's no rule stating that u have to change ur name once you are married. if it's so then how come guys don't have to change theirs?

Grrrrr.......

I don't have kids. but it sure feels like it, having 2 guys to look after and to pick up after one of them!! I have been preparing lunches(even tho' it's just sandwiches and wraps etc). feels as if I have my hands full with 2 school goers!!

My veena practice is going well, but I am hoping the blister will appear soon and dissapper just as fast; then my poor fingers will be accustomed to the strings. it's amazing how much you forget after not playing the veenai for about 5 years. but equally astounding is the fact that I can trigger my memory of the notes. it's the hands that I have to train...and doing plenty of it for the past 2 days.

visitors galore!!arriving soon..at an airport near me!

I have been around..just not to this part of my blogosphere!! I am still at home, looking for jobs and the agents are not helping!!

One of my favourite ppl has passed away..and I am still coming to terms with it. I do know that death is inevitable, but then why is it hard to accept that she is gone???? isn't knowledge supposed to make things better..or was it understanding/realization??

A few of our friends (families) have gone on l-o-n-g holidays of 2 months and 3 months to Lanka. another family to India, Lanka and the middle east and a bachelor friend has been around Europe in 30 days. I have been stuck here in Sydney for the past 40 odd months and have only been to Melbourne and Canberra( thank god for cousins and flower shows!!). I got a bit grumpy and irritated regarding that last week( Nah..that hasn't got me going anywhere!!). I am not bothered abt these things usually. it's when u go sumwhere and half the usual ppl are missing due to the fact that they are on holidays...THEN it hits.

I think I compare too much.

The human mind is a strange one. especially when it comes to family, you cannot fathom urself.. why u r thinking what u r thinking or why u r not thinking in a particular way!

well..besides the boggling mind factor, life has been pretty much ordinary. at home since the contract came to an end. if any of u want 2 go into a call centre position..reconsider. this could be the one thing u could actually take into ur mind. but believe u me... it's not worth the hassle. u might be paid well. but the headaches and the irritable feeling in the ear u are most likely to get by being on the phone 4 the whole day...Nah! it's not worth it!! does someone know y it is so?

so ..left the job, I did. hopefully finding another one won't be that long. but it is in mind that after October the recruitment business slumps as time draws the year to it's festive season. and until february there shall be meagre recruitment provisions. Iit is nice to be home..able to see the sunshine, walk in it.taking in the crisp spring rather than the air-con office air, but I can't help being a bit restless. it felt good bringing home some dough on my part. I would like to earn, but not be confined to the office without the sunshine and the birds. maybe part-time is the way to go.

You wait so long for that moment. when u know a person and want to meet them. you rehearse what you will say;wondering if it would be the right thing. don't want to seem rude..want to make an (good) impression that will last. u rehearse it soo much so that the meeting happens in your dreams. but unexpectedly when that precise moment actually arrives, when opportunity presents itself out of the blue you are at a loss as to what to say. all that you have rehearsed is long gone. you wait..not wanting to start the conversation..don't want to seem too eager.(unconsciously)purposely or unknowingly or just because u don't want to talk something you need is gotten from the other end of the table from someone else.u wanted to met her for soo long..yet she sits next to you and has the object u need.you don't ask. she takes some of the stuff and places it near you without a word (wonder how it made her feel..u not asking it from her!)

a simple "thankyou" from initiates the long awaited conversation.

"You've got a dimple" Catherine said. I couldn't believe my ears, me?have a dimple? oh! WOW! only I know that it's one of few(ok ok..inumerable)"how nice it would be if"s. maybe just maybe God had heard enough of this and has decided to put a dimple on me chubby cheeks overnight.(God is known to perform miracles you know). while my mind was racing ahead of me thinking this, I ran to the restroom. standing in front of the mirror I was smiling at various levels..smiling grinning - even an ear to ear( NO! not literally, 'coz my mouth is not so big <--in physical terms) even turning my head to all possible sides it would turn to, trying soo hard to find one. Did I find a Dimple? if you call a reeeeally elongated dent on the surface of my cheek running along the side of my mouth (only) when I smile..then YES! I found a dimple.

Dissapponted I got back to my seat and asked Catherine why she would lie to me. she said "it's not really a dimple dimple...but it's there..slightly!" huh!what!?
then KT goes "she must be talking o your invisible dimple" Haa haa! verrry funny (NOT).

What's this wet stuff they call rain?
by: Josh Massoud in the Daily Telegraph

RAIN:n. Water in drops falling from the sky to the Earth, being condensed from the aqueous vapour in the atmosphere.

Lifted from the Macquarie Dictionary's `disused words' version, the above passage has Sydneysiders apprehensively eyeing the heaven. Previously thought to be an extinct phenomena in NSW, rain is predicted in Sydney tomorrow. The State's Bureau of Meteorology's forecast last night sent historians scrambling thru' dust-encrusted annals to inform unprepared citizens how to react if and when the rain arrives around midday.

Bureau forecaster Satya Kishore warned the rain would be preceded by an equally unfamiliar weather feature known as clouds. According to Mr.Kishore, the clouds will gather above Sydney early tomorrow morning before issuing rain drops for several drops near the coast. Those in affected areas are asked not to contact Police to report missing shadows as these are assured to return when the clouds clear on Friday. Similarly, homeowners should not believe garden plants are ill if they turn a shade greener because of the rain. But exposed persons and infrastructure might get wet.

Motorists have been requested to familiarize themselves with their cars' rain-prevention system. Dubbed by some as the vehicular appendix most automobiles are still equipped with windshield wipers. Measuring approximately half a metre in length, these twin blades serve to remove droplets from the windscreen, thus enabling the driver a clear view of the road. Found on the bonnet-and in the rear in more expensive models-the wipers can be operated by flicking a perpendicular lever located on the bottom left-hand side of most steering wheel shafts.

Didn't go to Melbourne =O(
the person whom we were to see, came here. well, there is going to be a 50th b'day party ,so hopefully I will be going then.

I am sooooooo badly craving to go home..because my bro is there with his two kids and they are about to leave for Jaffna to go see our aunts and cousins. I wanna go too! I was talking to them yesterday and the house was N-O-I-S-Y!!!wow! here in the unit it's quiet and the non-existant mouse is not stirring.

work is cool.then there was the clean-up day at the temple. which was a lot of fun.
no time for self appriciation!

Going to Melbourne ! Going to Melbourne...YAY! YAY!YAY!!!

Where does time go when one starts working? called a friend for her b'day, and since I have been complaining that she does not mail me, maybe she thought she'd "get" me by asking if I had mailed to her since I started working or have replied to hers. I asked her if she mailed me, so I could reply...she changed the subject =O(

I have been trying to add the haloscan comments thingie on my blog, but since that did not come out properly I have brought the doodle on-board.the first comment is thanx to Siren who was online at the time of my experiment.

I am toying with the idea of going to Uni next year. $ won't be 2 much of a problem I hope.I am yet to decide on what course to do. KT says that information systems and computer science are a big NONO! I have 3 other choices.hopefully the unis I have in mind will be running them( hopefully not for the first-time)

WOW! writing after nearly a month!and What a (nearly a)month it has been! =O)

Work is soooo good. I am bludging half the time( Not that I mind it the least bit!),I get to go places and meet new and already known people. Maybe it's KT's method or it's just me(I can see some heads nodding) , I don't feel like I am learning anything. but the same feeling was present when I was doing my diploma , but to my surprise I have learnt quite a bit there. Talking abt diplomas, we had the graduation thingie last friday. yours truly got an academic award!(thankyou..thankyou!). Paree couldn't make it. Compared to the last time, we were noticeably quiet...except for the comments coming from GoKhan (who incidentally worked for "stimulous solutions" tee hee...LOL!!. saw my teacher.

One day when I was at work I recieved a call from a place to which I had applied previously & was unsuccessful. but the branch office was looking for person to fill the managerial role(OMG! they think I qualify???)see.. offers only come when you are already employed.I forwarded it to a friend of mine.wonder what happened, haven't heard from him so far!

my friend is having exams, so haven't seen or heard from her for abt 3 weeks now. having exams..wishing her the best of luck.

Then there was a wedding, my friend's sister's. beautiful. they even had an ice sculpture of Pillayar(lord Ganesh). But all the small ones were conducting touching experiments to see if he was melting.

Hubby and I tied the knot on this day, in 2001. so Happy Anniversary to us!

This is to clarify some thing I said in yesterday's blog. When I said Unwillingly waking up to go to work, I did not imply that I hated going to work, what I meant was the difficulty in getting out of bed when that quilt is oh!so warm ;O)

and as for my question from yesterday, I have been told that it is just me. :O|

Hmm.. I am not sure I like the new look of Blogger ( not that they are going to change it just for me!! LOL), guess it will take time to sink in/ getting used to..just like I was apprehensive abt XP. well...life so far has been : (Unwillingly) waking up and getting ready to work --> work --> home-->cooking--> dinner and hit the bed. it's a vicious cycle!! I can hear someone (who has read the prev. posts) going, " what r u complaining abt? u have a job as u wanted!!" . True...and I guess this must be true too " be careful what u wish for, for it just might come true!!"

Oh! has anyone thought of/told a story which you thought you were making up (really didn't know why u wre doing that!?) only to be told by someone that it actually DID HAPPEN!??? anyone? or is it just me as usual?

I am having a great time at work. My Boss (hereafter known as "KT") takes me to the client sites. I am hardly in the office, meeting new people, getting free lunches and of course learning the ropes - could one ask for more? (Salary wouldn't be too bad an option!!). My teacher had called and left a message, but just as he was saying " my partner interviewed two other people and.." the answering machine cut him off. Even the machine knows how I feel! abt 2/3 days ago Hubby Boy and I were wondering how a couple both working full time manage to raise kids? And apparently a kid costs from birth till it's 18...{brace urself} $600,000 (0.6million)!!!!! OMG! OMG!! Can u imagine what u can do with that kind of money?????? Why spend $100,000 of it on diapers??? and it's not like u get paid to go through all that agony of childbirth and maid work!!

Went shopping for "clothes to wear to work". Found one and it cost $110.00; turned back, and on our way bought some Rambutan. Been so long since I've tasted that fruit. Reminded me of home.

A friend of mine who was preggy is having a miscarriage. :O( She wanted to have a kid sooo badly, and I was so happy that she got her wish, but it was not to be. what does one say moments like these? and even if u say something appropriate does it really make a difference?